Sorry for my two posts being TTC posts, but I wanted to do a quick update.
I thankfully got my visit from Aunt Flo (hello new cycle). I was a little disappointed, at the same time I also felt relief because I didn't have to deal with the torture of waiting. I have been trying really hard to maintain a pretty healthy diet and stay in shape. Then it will be on to next month and to see what happens. This has been a journey so far, that is for sure. Tears shed and moments of just complete frustration. However I am always reminded of Hannah in the Bible in these moments. There are times where all you can do is go to the altar and tearfully and passionately pray. In the KJV bible in 1 Samuel 1:15 Hannah corrects the priest by informing him that she isn't drunk but a sorrowful spirit. Not that I am constantly in a sorrowful spirit. There are times in this journey where I have had to stop and just give myself a moment. In those moments it's the best time to really pray for a refocus. It's not always the easiest prayer to say, but I don't want what is suppose to be a joyful time be anything but joyful. If that makes sense.
I am thankful that I am surrounded by those that love me and when I finally get my BFP, I know that everyone will be so happy. I am blessed to be apart of a loving family and that my future babies will be so loved.
I know this is super short but I hope you all have a blessed evening!
~ Brandy
I thankfully got my visit from Aunt Flo (hello new cycle). I was a little disappointed, at the same time I also felt relief because I didn't have to deal with the torture of waiting. I have been trying really hard to maintain a pretty healthy diet and stay in shape. Then it will be on to next month and to see what happens. This has been a journey so far, that is for sure. Tears shed and moments of just complete frustration. However I am always reminded of Hannah in the Bible in these moments. There are times where all you can do is go to the altar and tearfully and passionately pray. In the KJV bible in 1 Samuel 1:15 Hannah corrects the priest by informing him that she isn't drunk but a sorrowful spirit. Not that I am constantly in a sorrowful spirit. There are times in this journey where I have had to stop and just give myself a moment. In those moments it's the best time to really pray for a refocus. It's not always the easiest prayer to say, but I don't want what is suppose to be a joyful time be anything but joyful. If that makes sense.
I am thankful that I am surrounded by those that love me and when I finally get my BFP, I know that everyone will be so happy. I am blessed to be apart of a loving family and that my future babies will be so loved.
I know this is super short but I hope you all have a blessed evening!
~ Brandy
I know you've probably thought of this but in case you haven't - have you tried a cycle tracking app? Dan and I aren't planning on starting a family for a couple of years but with my cycle being pretty irregular I've started very loosely tracking it. I have an IUD, so it doesn't affect my hormones at all so I know my cycle isn't affected by birth control. For us tracking just saves the moment of panic (pregnancy with an IUD, though virtually impossible, is more likely to be ectopic) when I've gone 6 - 7 weeks without a period. Tje app I have you can track all your symptoms and mood etc. Presumably if you set it for fertility tracking it can help you understand what your body is up to a bit more! Hang in there! Praying for you! Xx
ReplyDeleteHey girl! I have been using two apps to track my cycles. I like both of them and they have helped a lot. There have been a few times I was really late, and a couple times I didn't get one at all. From what I gather from information I gathered from research and tracking, it's a mixture of stress and even poor eating habits. I have changed my diet around and so far this month has been easier. Eating healthier helps me know the difference between the irregular and normal in my cycles for sure! Thanks for commenting! X
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